24 June 2007

My fandom is stalkerish

Okay, so I've discussed my unhealthy obsession with admiration for David Tennant on here, I know I have. Even in brief. What I haven't stated is that I also have some serious love for Graham Norton. (Seriously, if the man ever called me up and said "I need someone to carry my child," I'd probably do it in a heartbeat - in exchange for cash and a way to get citizenship in the UK...)

Now, imagine my *squeeness* when David Tennant showed up on The Graham Norton Show. It's absolutely hilarious, and the geek factor of Tennant just makes me want to stalk love him just a little bit more. Seriously, the man hits on so much of what's on my list.

Best line from the show? "Derek, it's the Doctor, you had your chance, you blew it!" The look on his face is priceless when he turns off the mobile. (It's in part 4, about 5:12 in if you just want to skip to, but you'll miss the back bit.)

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

Part 4


Oh yeah, I'm a fangirl. I admit it. And, seriously? If any of my squeeness ever gets me a call or a chance to meet Tennant? The public embarrassment will be SO worth it.

21 June 2007

Nothing to see here, move along...

Not a whole lot to report in the history/teaching realm.

In other news, while I was accompanying my Division Chair on a trip to Breckenridge, CO for a conference, my Subaru died. Not badly, just enough to be a whiny little bitch and need more work done on him than he was worth. (Yes, I believe the Subaru was a little gay-emo-gothwannabe male car. Your point?) So, I traded him in and got Bettie. She's a 2003 Jeep Liberty (black, natch), and there's only two things I'm not entirely thrilled with - she has a whistle in her windshield and she's an automatic. Well, and she's not a Wrangler, but I'm happy enough with a KJ as opposed to a TJ. (She gets better gas mileage than the TJ, but not quite so ready to go off-roading... Next one, I suppose.)

In other words, I have joined the cult of Jeep. I've wanted a Jeep for a damned long time, so it's not that big of a surprise that I ended up with one. She should last me for a few years at least.

Still need to get her in for a full inspection and all, but in due time (and finances).

While I was in Breck, I also lost a contact whilst crossing the street (I know, only me), so I had to get into an optometrist because my Rx was out of date. Now I'm on dailies, which is nice. It'll be even nicer when my contacts get in from VisionDirect. (A year's worth of contacts for $87 after I get the rebate back. I've never had it so cheap!)

Other things happened in Breck, but I'm not sharing those. Let's just say that when the words "you're as old as some of my students" pops from my mouth, I should leave. Immediately.

Took tons of photos. Decided that I could definitely live in the Rockies (though I think I'd be happier in the UT Rockies - better snow). Found some community colleges around ski towns that would suit me well, figured out a plan to make it possible (keep the current 'net job, get a full time position at the CCs there, swing so my schedule is M-W, ski ThF, work as a liftie SaSu for the free pass, and give up all hobbies aside from knitting, skiing, and biking), and now will just happily wait until I'm done with my PhD and start looking at those areas then.

Now, I think I'm done with my diversion from having to clean my flat. It must be done (as much as I hate doing it).

03 June 2007

Time for another tab dump

First hand accounts of Fijian cannibalism.
Dr. Hallowell's blog dealing with ADHD in students and adults.
Linklist for sources and information on Tibetan Buddhism.
Suggested reading lists for history grad students (see comments).
Doctor Who postery goodness.
General contact information for David Tennant - possible interview for UK trip. (No, it's not specific enough for you to contact and get all kinds of things.)
Respondus information for WebCT quizzes and testing.
Fall course online resource - myHistoryLab.
Memorable quotes from Firefly and Serenity.

02 June 2007

They have a name for that...

And, apparently, it's called Academic Impostor Syndrome.

(Caltech has an article on the topic.)

Allow me to let you in on a dirty little secret of mine. I think that every single day I run the risk of being discovered. A student asks me a question, and I give them an answer from the hip. I know the information is valid, but I don't recall an absolute cite for it. Is it true, or is it my brain creating something out of whole cloth?

Then there's those five little words that every person in my position fears. No, not "where is this relationship going?"1 but rather, "you have so much potential." The initial thought is "no, I don't," the second, "if you only knew."

I've suspected for a while that I couldn't be the only person that has this sensation. It's not that I'm unaware of my intelligence. Look, I know I'm a smart cookie. I know that a great deal of it has to do with my inherent curiosity about the world (thanks, in no small part, to my "neurological defect")... But I always suspected that it was something I just had to live with. You see, I was a glorious "B/B+" student during undergrad. Now, part of that was because I was lazy. I'd attend classes, but rarely crack a book unless I had to for an assignment. In fact... I've never really learned how to study, even in law school. In law school, I read the cases, worked through the problems, pulled the information, complied it, and regurgitated it. But even then, I wasn't really studying.

I'm starting grad school in the fall, and I still don't really know how to study. And yet, I teach. I have to explain to students how best to study. Shit, I'm a fraud.

And some day, someone's going to find me out.

There's a litany of things that I could divulge. Frauds I feel like I've perpetrated.

I am strongly debating on ordering the CD/Book from the first link above. If it's worthwhile, I'll report back on how wonderful it is. Mostly, what I'd want out of it is how to encourage my brain to realize how good it is. And hopefully it'll get me past that academic block that has kept me as a B student.

1I love this quote from Coupling.